So many things...so little time

I attended the NA convention weekend before last. What an awesome experience to say the very least. There is something to be said about the power of being in a room of over 8000 recovering addicts all there for the same purpose. To carry the message. To care and love one another. It was absolutely amazing! Words cannot describe it! I had a great time!

In other news...I am dealing with the fact that I have a teenage daughter that has raging hormones. She recently came to to me and shared the news that she is no longer a virgin. A part of me was devestated, but a part of me was also honored by the fact that she felt enough trust in me to share that much of herself. I know that I would of never shared that experience with my mother at that age. I guess I'm doing something right. I've felt a lot of heart ache over this. The loss of her innocence. I know that this was a long time coming. I've talked to my support group and I've worked through the pain. I just want to be there for her and help her to make healthy, responsible decisions.

Today, my ethnic studies professor told me that he was nominating me for an award at school. It an award that has to do with scholastics as well as outside endeavors. He was impressed with my work in the recovery process. I am truly honored.

So much is happening. I have come so far in such a short time. I am just two courses away from completing my coursework for my major in Administration of Justice. I can't believe it! It seems just like yesterday when I started! :-)

omg..

I can't believe this sh*t! I had all of last week off and I just now get sick?! I haven't felt this bad in years. I didn't have the sheer will to force myself to get out of bed today. Just couldn't do it. Not to sound like a big baby...but I just feel like crying right now. That's how bad I feel.

That is all...

""religion is for people who want to avoid hell. spirituality if for those who have already been there.""

Spring break...time to update

Gosh I haven't posted on here in like forever! I always check in on everybody, but it just seems like I never have the time to write. I'm on spring break this week so I finally found a minute. Things are going good. I'm still taking 18 units, which translates into 6 classes. I actually have all A's and high B's in all except for one class, so I'm doing pretty good.

The kids are doing well. Lauren is getting ready to go to her first high school prom! I can't believe it! My lil girl is growin up! *sniff* She's a good kid. I've really been blessed.

My recovery is stronger than ever. I'm going to meetings all the time. I've built a great support group and I'll be done with the 12 steps this week! WooHoo! I'm being asked to speak at group level a lot now. Me and my big mouth! lol

Recently, my sponsor told me that I very "theatrical" when I spoke. I took huge offense to this. It was as if she said I was "acting"! I told her that I preferred "passionate". But whatever...to each his own. I'm just so frickin grateful to be alive and to be allowed the life that I have today. If I get a lil excited when I talk about it...then I think that's a good thing! :-)

So, today I'm going shopping with my girlfriend and then hanging out at the house. Exciting isn't it? lol Have a great day! :-)

Clarity...

Just wanted to shed some light on the last post... I will not be making amends to anyone that isn't ready for them to be made. I think the step that I posted just below defines what I mean.

This is step 9...

We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

I should of posted this much sooner. I am so grateful to all of you for your love and support.

More shall be revealed...

I finished my 8th step with my sponsor last night, which means I am officially on my 9th step now.


We made a list of all people we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

Contrary to populary belief, my list is not ALL that long! lol Only one sheet of binder paper. Single spaced of course. I'm excited to do this step. It's going to be a journey of healing and self discovery.

Some people I will make direct face to face amends to, while others, I will have to write letters too. (Ex-husbands and the like)

Okay I'm off to school! Have a great....great....great day!

Wow....

So I took my mid-term for Ethnic Studies in Film last week. I initially took this class as a "filler"...meaning that I thought it would give me an easy 3 units on my transcript. I was so WRONG! This is bar none the hardest class out of the 18 units that I'm taking this semester! The professor is tough, but fair.

Anyways...we got our exams back today. Before he handed them back he said that he didn't want to embarress me but that my test was the perfect example of a great job! I was floored! I was totally prepared to just get an average score. I'm so stoked!

Oh yes I got a perfect score 10/10!