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""religion is for people who want to avoid hell. spirituality if for those who have already been there.""

Spring break...time to update

Gosh I haven't posted on here in like forever! I always check in on everybody, but it just seems like I never have the time to write. I'm on spring break this week so I finally found a minute. Things are going good. I'm still taking 18 units, which translates into 6 classes. I actually have all A's and high B's in all except for one class, so I'm doing pretty good.

The kids are doing well. Lauren is getting ready to go to her first high school prom! I can't believe it! My lil girl is growin up! *sniff* She's a good kid. I've really been blessed.

My recovery is stronger than ever. I'm going to meetings all the time. I've built a great support group and I'll be done with the 12 steps this week! WooHoo! I'm being asked to speak at group level a lot now. Me and my big mouth! lol

Recently, my sponsor told me that I very "theatrical" when I spoke. I took huge offense to this. It was as if she said I was "acting"! I told her that I preferred "passionate". But whatever...to each his own. I'm just so frickin grateful to be alive and to be allowed the life that I have today. If I get a lil excited when I talk about it...then I think that's a good thing! :-)

So, today I'm going shopping with my girlfriend and then hanging out at the house. Exciting isn't it? lol Have a great day! :-)

Clarity...

Just wanted to shed some light on the last post... I will not be making amends to anyone that isn't ready for them to be made. I think the step that I posted just below defines what I mean.

This is step 9...

We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

I should of posted this much sooner. I am so grateful to all of you for your love and support.

More shall be revealed...

I finished my 8th step with my sponsor last night, which means I am officially on my 9th step now.


We made a list of all people we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

Contrary to populary belief, my list is not ALL that long! lol Only one sheet of binder paper. Single spaced of course. I'm excited to do this step. It's going to be a journey of healing and self discovery.

Some people I will make direct face to face amends to, while others, I will have to write letters too. (Ex-husbands and the like)

Okay I'm off to school! Have a great....great....great day!

Wow....

So I took my mid-term for Ethnic Studies in Film last week. I initially took this class as a "filler"...meaning that I thought it would give me an easy 3 units on my transcript. I was so WRONG! This is bar none the hardest class out of the 18 units that I'm taking this semester! The professor is tough, but fair.

Anyways...we got our exams back today. Before he handed them back he said that he didn't want to embarress me but that my test was the perfect example of a great job! I was floored! I was totally prepared to just get an average score. I'm so stoked!

Oh yes I got a perfect score 10/10!

Blessings

Live right and the blessing just keep pouring in....

In December I applied for a very prestigious scholarship. Not only was it based on scholastic achievement, but on overcoming of adversity such as mine.

Yesterday I received the following email...

I am pleased to tell you that you were chosen as our winner for the Soroptimist International Burlingame-San Mateo-Mid Peninsula Women's Opportunity Award.

I am mailing you a letter with more information that I will include in this email, but I wanted to touch base with you and let you know.

The judges and myself were greatly impressed by your sheer will-power and self motivation to overcome the obstacles you have been faced with. We have no doubt and are hopeful the road will be simpler for you to reach your goals in the future.

I screamed so loud when I read it that my daughter thought that I had fallen off of the computer chair! lol Life is good!

I woke up today not feeling very well. I think that I have a head cold. Oh great! lol I had an oral presentation due in my ethnic studies class. It went really well. I got an A. I'm home now. I'm going to take a nap.

I got a call last night. I was asking to speak at an NA meeting. I'm supposed to share my experience, strength, and hope tonight. I'm nervous as always. My friend says to just speak from my heart. If I do that...I just might start crying. Well that might be good. I feel so much passion when it comes to my recovery. It saved my life. Without recovery...I would have no life.

The other day I was with my sponsor. She was giving me my 7th step assignment. I was coming up with a whole lot of excuses why I couldn't get it done. She told me point blank that she didn't want to hear it. She said this....

I didn't tell you to be Superwoman
I didn't tell you to have three kids
I didn't tell you to take 18 units in school
I didn't tell you to work
All I care about is your recovery

This sounds harsh to the casual observer. But you know whats harsher? Relapse. Loss of what I've achieved today. Death. So I quieted myself and set to the task of working on my step. My sponsor is a very wise woman. I love her so much.

Have a blessed day!
Now get your step done!