Blessings

Live right and the blessing just keep pouring in....

In December I applied for a very prestigious scholarship. Not only was it based on scholastic achievement, but on overcoming of adversity such as mine.

Yesterday I received the following email...

I am pleased to tell you that you were chosen as our winner for the Soroptimist International Burlingame-San Mateo-Mid Peninsula Women's Opportunity Award.

I am mailing you a letter with more information that I will include in this email, but I wanted to touch base with you and let you know.

The judges and myself were greatly impressed by your sheer will-power and self motivation to overcome the obstacles you have been faced with. We have no doubt and are hopeful the road will be simpler for you to reach your goals in the future.

I screamed so loud when I read it that my daughter thought that I had fallen off of the computer chair! lol Life is good!

I woke up today not feeling very well. I think that I have a head cold. Oh great! lol I had an oral presentation due in my ethnic studies class. It went really well. I got an A. I'm home now. I'm going to take a nap.

I got a call last night. I was asking to speak at an NA meeting. I'm supposed to share my experience, strength, and hope tonight. I'm nervous as always. My friend says to just speak from my heart. If I do that...I just might start crying. Well that might be good. I feel so much passion when it comes to my recovery. It saved my life. Without recovery...I would have no life.

The other day I was with my sponsor. She was giving me my 7th step assignment. I was coming up with a whole lot of excuses why I couldn't get it done. She told me point blank that she didn't want to hear it. She said this....

I didn't tell you to be Superwoman
I didn't tell you to have three kids
I didn't tell you to take 18 units in school
I didn't tell you to work
All I care about is your recovery

This sounds harsh to the casual observer. But you know whats harsher? Relapse. Loss of what I've achieved today. Death. So I quieted myself and set to the task of working on my step. My sponsor is a very wise woman. I love her so much.

Have a blessed day!
Now get your step done!

Looks can be deceiving...

It's kinda nice when someone looks at me nowadays and says..."You used to do meth?" No way! And I say..."oh ya!"Let me tell ya...there was a day when none of ya would of recognized me or would of wanted anything to do with me. I'm so glad that those days are over.

Growing up, I was always a bit of a tomb-boy. Daddy's little girl. Always went hunting and fishing with dear old dad. Got my first b-b gun at the age of 8 or 9 and learned to shoot a shot gun sometime later. I grew up around cars and thus have a little more mechanical knowledge then your typical "woman"...lol That is said with much love ladies.

So today...I fixed the tail light and brake lights on my car. It did involve a little more then just replacing the bulbs since the dang connections had corroded and I had to literally disassemble the entire light assembly just to get them out. But I feel so accomplished today. All lights are now in good working order, which means no ticket...and more importantly...we are safe! Yay!

Okay...I'm off to do some history homework. I also finished my first english essay that was assigned this semester. I'm pretty darned proud of it. I think I did an overall good job. Hope everyone is well. Much love and respect always.

Happy Hearts Day...

My how things have changed! My daughter is out with her boyfriend tonight for Valentine's Day. I'm home with the boy's tonight. It's been a little tradition of mine as of late to take myself to the movies on saturday nights. This is something that I could of never done in the past. I see it as some real personal growth. Being able to be comfortable enough in my own skin to go somewhere alone is an amazing feeling. I've seen some really good movies lately too! But tonight I'll stay home with my two little valentine's and watch some cartoons. Happy Hearts Day everybody! Much love to you all :-)

Today I can make a difference

I've been "keeping on...keeping on"...as they say in the program of recovery. I am on this spiritual high. I can't believe how amazing I feel!
I'm still doing the 18 units in college. I'm still doing the single mom to three kids. I'm still working the lil part time job.
I'm not telling you all this to get pats on the back.
I'm telling you this...because I realized something just on Sunday.
Today I have become "teachable"...today I can strive for things that I never thought were possible. I'm doing this! I'm more then half way to my AA degree. A few years back when I was still in the streets doing my dope...who would of thought? huh? lol
Today....I've learned that I'm not perfect...and you know what? Thats okay. It's progress...not perfection. Everyday...I get the privelage to work on me.Today...I get to be a daughter...a student...a sister...a mother...a neice...a granddaughter...a friend...a cousin....Most importantly...today...I get to be alive.

Yay me!

Happy Birthday to Me!

Can you believe it? I'm 37 today! lol

Have a great day everybody!

Have a great day on me!

Much love and respect always!

Thank you Yacky for being a friend...

I was in a little bit of a funk. Yacky went out of his way to email and make sure that I was okay...for this I thank you my dear friend.

I've been "keeping on...keeping on"...as they say in the program of recovery. I am on this spiritual high. I can't believe how amazing I feel! I'm still doing the 18 units in college. I'm still doing the single mom to three kids. I'm still working the lil part time job. I'm not telling you all this to get pats on the back.

I'm telling you this...because I realized something just on Sunday. Today I have become "teachable"...today I can strive for things that I never thought were possible. I'm doing this! I'm more then half way to my AA degree. A few years back when I was still in the streets doing my dope...who would of thought? huh? lol

Today....I've learned that I'm not perfect...and you know what? Thats okay. It's progress...not perfection. Everyday...I get the privelage to work on me.

Today...I get to be a daughter...a student...a sister...a mother...a neice...a granddaughter...a friend...a cousin....

Most importantly...today...I get to be alive.

I'm go grateful to alive. I don't plan on wasting anymore time.